Too Much Time

Todd's mind goes into over-active mode when there is...well too much time to think. Over active, over analyzing, over easy...If i could just figure out a way to transfer those thoughts to paper and have it mean something...i mean, really mean something i'd be content. When given too much time to think i tend to force the thoughts, force the words, force the emotions. And in the end, i'm never satisfied with the outcome. It never works out the way it was orchestrated in my head. Sometimes i am surprised by the outcome...sometimes it works out better than imagined. Ahhh...i enjoy those rare moments.
At any rate, i'm going to embark on trip that lends itself to too much time to think. Simply because there isn't much else to do. I could read...that pacifies the mind for some time. Then there is the music. If i could bring the guitar that would help. But i'm too scared to bring it. Scared...is probably not the right word. Nervous...that's a better word. With the right motivation that could change.
There are a lot things i want to take care of here on the home front. The list is long.
Being away, with too much time to think...the mind-killer. No wait. Fear. Fear is the mind-killer.